The following are extracts of emails I received from sissy fifi who kindly allowed me to share them with the readers of sissymaids.info. Please note there are Rules for sissy fifi when writing. she may only write in pink, she must use small case “i” when referring to herself and she is not allowed to use a full stop, it is “…” instead!
With my Wife, i’ve really become Her bestest girlfriend, for the past year or so this new kind of girly relationship between us is so normal we don’t even think about it…
There has been no sex for me for the past 10 months, both because She now has a real man as Her lover, and because i don’t even dare think about this – i’ve become such a no-man, such a sissy now,
that it’s simply too outrageous for me to even consider normal sex with my Wife… She calls me Her little pink dildo, and the closest i get to Her Temple is pleasuring Her pleasure button with my peepee
while we fantasize about Her next encounter with Her Boyfriend…
The thing is She’s really sexy and attractive and i do worship Her great body – that’s the most frustrating thing for a non-gay sissy – the
constant reminders how things could have been and how i’ve willingly, pathetically given all rights to this beautiful body to another man…
We are in our late 40s (but i really really feel like a little helpless silly girl most of the time – i’m being trained to become more and more that silly clueless girl…).
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Yes, having sissy names is not enough – i found that all kinds of belittling are great for us…
For example, i’m not allowed to end a sentence with a full stop as it’s too decisive, which doesn’t really fit my nature…
This rule, and also having to write in pink, is coming from my Trainer (more below…)
Also, in Hebrew, luckily, i can refer to myself all the time in feminine form – unlike English, i can say “i am going out” for example and the verb will be in the feminine form… Great, right?…
So my Wife sometimes talks to me in the feminine, especially when i’m in full sissy mode, or when She wants to order me around, but recently also during ‘normal’ times… it just comes out naturally…
While She fully accepts my sissiness and ‘works around this problem’ with Her Boyfriend, She’s not the bossy type, so does not order me around all the time, only when we’re alone in bed (when She
deigns to visit me…) or when preparing to meet Him…
For the past year and half or so, i’m tremendously lucky to have a young Female Trainer, mostly online (email), but we met a few times (with my Wife’s agreement), who enjoys humiliating me terribly, and thinking of me and making me the lowest of the low in terms of my sissiness and cuckoldness… She knows exactly how to make me very tiny, and thanks to Her rule, my life has changed dramatically…
For example, during the last few months, i’m not allowed anymore to buy anything masculine to wear – i have to buy everything, pants, shirts, shoes, the whole lot, in ladies shops/departments, and slowly replace my ‘masculine’ wardrobe with feminine items…
i’m now about 75% of the way there…
Also, I’m learning now how to do embroidery, as my Trainer thinks this is a great hobby for sissies like me… I’ve already finished a pretty little duckling which i bought as an embroidery kit, and i just love the feeling of total silliness i have when doing the stitches – my silly little head is empty except for adoring sissy thoughts…
i simply adore the idea of total control of the sissy (it’s also called micro-management…) and with my wonderful Trainer i’m slowly getting there…
we sissies need our lives to be fully controlled, i’m sure you’d agree… When left on our own, we are simply useless… i, for example, keep playing with me peepee because i’m not regulated otherwise..
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Things are moving fast here – my Wife has started studying now, and is using me as her ‘academic slave’…
Yesterday She sent me to photocopy some pages she needed from a large book, and promised me that She’ll be making better use of my sissy services soon…
i’m sooooo happy – to be a student’s lackey was my long-time dream…
i was the only ‘photocopier’ standing with knees tight together and bending in a ladylike manner to pick up things… i always loved the idea of being a homework slave…
By the way, i forgot to tell you the bestest recent order from my Trainer: i should only read little girls’ books/stories, with the occasional Chick Lit/romance book in between…
During the last few months i finished reading Pollyanna, The Secret Garden, Anne of Green Gables and many more, less known titles… i just love to check out in my library titles such as My Sister Jodie (i’ve read many of Ms. Wilson girly books now, they’re sooooo cute and girlish…)
Anyways, it’s exactly as my Trainer says, i keep jumping from one topic to another like a silly girl, which is what i’m becoming…
i wore my first tights as a little boy, and my mother’s tights drawer was my fantasy world – i guess that’s why i’m so hooked on tights, my biggest bestest fashion item and fetish…
i have dozens of tights in all colours, textures and thicknesses… i remember in Purim (a great Jewish holiday when people, especially children, dress up) as a tiny boy dressed as Queen Esther…
You won’t believe it, but i’ve just kissed my Wife goodbye (on the cheek of course…) as She left on Her way to meet Her Lover…
They booked 3 hours of continuous love making and cuddling and kissing at a lovers’ hotel nearby, and i was left here to think about what my Superiors are doing…
She hasn’t seen Him for a while now, and i of course didn’t provide Her with any equivalent of Male sex, so obviously She was very excited…
She promised to call me and leave Her phone on speaker, so that i can hear how excited and hot They are… (She did it last time, just before Her orgasm, and it was so frustrating and humiliating and pathetic, me sitting at home in my sissy clothes listening impotently to my Wife and Her Lover having sex (me of course locked for a few days in my CB6000… – as i am now…)
Naturally, i also was Her Lady’s maid before She left – helping Her with applying lotion to Her body to make Her soft for Him, helping Her dress from panties to bra to shoes, and shining them as She stood
over me smiling to Herself… and yesterday, i hand-washed the blouse She was wearing and Her panties… i’m so pathetic and yet so addicted to this humiliation…
Sometimes it’s not that easy being a sissy cuckold, but still, i love every minute of it… you can guess also that i can’t wait till She comes back exhausted and wet, and let me lick Her Temple before She’ll unlock me…
i was allowed to be present at two previous occasions – both times i spent kneeling in the toilet doing my colouring book most of the time, only ordered into the bedroom to serve them… i even had the best sissy privilege of kissing and sucking His Cock, and what a Cock it was… that was the most humiliating thing i ever did… but you know, i also enjoyed it – not the sucking as much as the knowing that i’m sucking my Wife’s Lover’s Cock, if you know what i mean…
Oh, and i loved your photos, you seem to have a great body, and look really elegant as a maid – i loved the blue maid dress…
Btw, i’m now reading a series of books on maids, you might find you want to try too:
Sweet Anna by Dezso Kosztolanyi (a Hungarian one, translated into English, which ends tragically when the simple, adoring, objectified maid simply loses it…)
Maid to Match by Deeanne Gist
i need to learn everything i can about being a maid – i’m even downloading the classic British TV series “Upstairs, Downstairs” to further my training…
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Life is still great, although my Wife is so busy with Her studies She doesn’t have much time for lovers or even for sissy me…
She does use my photocopying and collating services though…
My Wife now wants to find a new, more available Lover, so i think we’re soon going to try and find Her a new boyfriend, which She’s talking to me about all the time… He should be someone who can take Her out to restaurants, movies, the theatre and parties, so as to act as a proper Boyfriend, not just for sex (although sex is very important too, of course…)… i will act as Their chauffeuress, maid and sissy… They plan to meet in a coffee shop with me sitting there quietly in very feminine attire, with knees together, head down doing my colouring or embroidery, not speaking unless spoken to, like a good sissy girl… i shudder at this new humiliation in front of a Real Man and others…
We’re really just like two girlfriends, bestest friends, and we even talk about men when we go out, seeing whom She might like to get to know better… it’s such a sweet humiliation, and i wouldn’t change it for anything (not even for sex with Her, so pathetic…)
you asked about the ‘cage’, as we call it… the thing is, when i’m locked, normally for a few days before Her meeting Her lover, i am very excited all the time, and thinking only about sissy things, so it actually hinders my work… i’m working freelance, so i have to concentrate on work otherwise i’ll be missing deadlines… Also, i get up very early in the morning when i have the cage on, i can’t stay in bed because it drives me crazy, this enforced impotence, so i start doing things, even work, very early and my Wife just loves my ‘diligence’….
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